Unspoken words
Sunday, October 30, 2022
Note about a stranger I saw on a trip
Saturday, September 24, 2022
A walk down the memory lane - 18th Sep 2022
Wednesday, September 14, 2022
Unsent letter - Jan 8 2020
Hi,
Never thought that so soon in our relationship, I will write to you like this instead of talking it over to you. Maybe I'm scared that I will be misunderstood if I try to talk it over and it's quite possible.
Whatever happened that day wasn't supposed to happen. Never thought that it would happen. Atleast that's what I was thinking until that day. I still can't understand the reason why it happened. And any reason that pops up in the mind appears either like an excuse or justification so I'm not going to think of finding the reasons.
But what bothers me more is how it affected you and that hurts me... a lot. I don't know why but sometimes it feels like as if you were not ready yet to know and understand me the way I'm supposed to be known and understood. And this particular episode had made you think differently.
I feel like as if I'm imposing in your life a lot. I hope it is not true. But if it is true and if it is bothering you and if it has to end, then I hope it happens silently and gracefully. I wouldn't want the past to be repeated again.
Whatever life may bring to me or take me to, I will continue to smile superficially, appear lively and happy, the way I had been doing in my life so far, no matter how hurt I'm within.
Closing some doors
Closing some doors not because of pride, incapacity or arrogance but simply because they no longer lead somewhere.
You don't have to have it all figured out always, just take the next step to move forward. I know it's not easy to put up brave front and behaving unaffected when the loved person finds happiness being with someone else. I'm well aware of the pain it causes when the other person is oblivious of what you are going through.
Don't be sad when I stop caring anymore. Be sad because I once did and you were too blind to see it.
Wednesday, April 13, 2022
Unsent note - Year 2007
Thursday, November 21, 2019
Once again "I wonder"
Maybe this page will remain as reminder of something unfinished in my life
Thursday, September 9, 2010
I wonder....
There are so many views that I feel different about but I dont express them for fear of being misunderstood by others. So many things that I would like to do but stop myself for not wanting to hurt others feelings.
And now I wonder what am I writing :)